As many of us will happily see this year out, here is why 2019 has been the most important year of my life: ’cause I’ve fallen flat faced more times I can remember and I got back up more times I thought I’d be able to.

And every fall was acutely painful.

And every rise was more freeing than the previous one.

Each one of them came with a new realization which deeply changed me to my core, and I know now my life will never be the same.

It just cannot be.

Did I I enjoy the tears and pain?

Can’t honestly say that I did, but I was always able to see whatever was been gestated in the background, away from what my small mind can see.

So here I am on this last day of a very long decade and a very intense year, feeling a deep gratitude and reverence for a Life I don’t always comprehend but which I implicitly trust, has my back.

Even when it’s tough.

Even when it has me on the floor, unable to hide anywhere.

Thank you 2019 for being the time when I lost myself only TO FIND ME!

May you all have a moment as this year come to a close to offer your gratitude to whatever you think is important.

Cause when we pause and become present with Life, only very good things can happen.