As we fast approach the end of this year, I can’t help thinking that it’ll be a long time before we can forget 2015.
It will definitely be a year to remember, for both good and bad reasons.
While I ease myself through the quieter energy brought by the Autumn, I notice how exhausted I am and I wish I could just fall in a very long sleep to get all my strength back.
Then I remember that most people around me have surely been feeling the same, for this is a year that spared no one and we all have been brought face to face with our limitations somehow.
So while I slowly decor my home to welcome the stillness of Samhain, I realize how desperate my soul is to really be right where I am, instead of constantly moving back & forth from a past long gone to a future that may never be. It’s the moving that has tired us all down, for while our soul’s call is to live in the breath of now, we obstinately choose to wander through the maze of our crazy mind.
As I light a candle, I let myself stare into the flame, almost drawn into the hit I feel on my face and I just want to stay there, without the need to know what happens next.
And I feel this has been the energy of this year.
We have been oscillating between the need of new and the weight of lifetime constrictions.
We all have been wishing we could just tear off our mask and run free showing the whole world who we really are, without the need to hide our flaws.
And in our attempt to do so, our little sneaky friend, “fears” have been working extra hard to keep us right down the bottom of our imprisoned soul.
While we still try to fit in, our heart is telling us we can’t for it no longer matters.
We are never going to be as others would like us to be, we are never going to be as perfect as our fears want us to be, and we are never going to breathe ’till that mask is covering our face.
As the world changes, we cannot be “not OK”!
[tweetthis]This is our time to be OK with whatever we are, with whatever we’ve got, for here lies our strength.[/tweetthis]
It’s our time to defy our old selves and start flying free, away from limits imposed on us by whatever is without our heart.
And while I’m still staring at this tiny flame in my hand, I realize that I have spent the most past of this year wanting to defy gravity, refusing to accept others’ truths and believing that I could too make a difference, for myself and those around. In doing so, I had to use a vast amount of energy to float away from what I have been expecting of myself all my life, for we are often our own worst enemies.
And while I’m still floating, sometimes higher, sometimes very close again to the ground, I can see there’s no other way to be right now.
Not for me.
Not for anyone-else.
There is no way back to our old ways because life has evolved so much in such a short space of time and we are called to trust our instincts, close our eyes and leap.
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You have truly encompassed what this year has been like! I also feel like there are not enough hours to just sleep and recharge! But I do think it is a prequel to preparing ourselves for better as the year ends and a new year approaches:) Thank you for such encouraging words and may we all Defy Gravity!
Hi Nena, thank you for your words….
yes, to put it very blatantly we have now entered our “labor phase” at the end of which we will give birth to a new us! So it can be extremely intense and painful, both because we are shedding our old skin but also because we don’t know what the future holds! There is not going back now and the first thing that would really ease our discomfort is to just let go of what was…..simple but not easy! I believe more than ever that it is down to people in our fields to smooth the way for the others around…Whether it’s physical activity, energy work or just cooking or creating art….whoever can support others to come within their full potential is very much needed!
Bliss & Grace from my Heart to Yours x
I agree 100%! Supporting each other is the key ingredient:)